As I scroll through my Insagram this morning it’s flooded with photos of bloggers and their white picket fence lifestyle. All their images show adorably
dressed kids, beautiful homes and pictures of their beachy vacations. Come on now, your kids still make messes and throw fits, you still have issues with your husband and you trying to manage your intimate life and demands of jobs and kids, and your dinner burns just like everyone else’s, so take off your blinders.
I would love to be able to post a super cute photo of our family. We have boys ranging from 23 to 2 and we have zero photos with all of our kids, mostly because they don’t like each other so it’s not worth it. We don’t have time for vacations and I’ll be quite honest I’m a scrooge and vacations just seem like a big waste of money. I’d rather just drive an hour and camp in the forest, next to a bubbling brook.
Most of the time I’m pretty sure all of our kids hate us, with the exception of the two year old and that is only because he needs us for his complete survival so he is still in his “love you always” years.
Our blended family is a mess of emotions, kids feeling like they have been put second to each other, raw feelings of hurt from the loss of their biological parents to life’s unfair process. I don’t blame any of them, I really don’t. I can’t imagine how hard it would be to have a parent pass away and have to be shoved into a “new family”. At times my kids are incredibly cruel with their words and actions, although I certainly hope that they simply don’t always mean what they say or do. It certainly can break a mothers soul.
No matter your circumstance, don’t be fooled by the “picture perfect” social media posts. ANYONE can portray perfection. This is the exact reason why I decided to start blogging. I want you to know that you are not alone. My life is a FAR CRY from perfect.
I wake up every day with a “real life” hangover. Many times I am fighting with an inner demon as I pry myself out of bed. While I fully believe in the atonement there are moments when my past decides to haunt my present. Between this, juggling a full time job, husbands business and my kids, I feel completely drained.
I make a conscious choice every morning to be happy, as well as throughout the day if I hit “trigger points” that send me into a dark place. I have to fight to be where I am, yes I have figured out how to manage and cope and I could be posting these glamorous photos of perfection on my page too but I want you to really get me and I want you to see that you can have really low moments and still be able to find your potential.
These people with their perfect looking worlds are also the ones that many times hit rock bottom and go off the deep end so stop comparing what you have to what it appears that they have. Chin up, we all have things going on behind closed doors that we muck our way through and it may not always be glamorous, but rather messy, and that is just the reality of life!
As always, have a ridiculously amazing day!