I wake up, start my daily rituals, I am pretty set with my schedule but it is a Holiday and I allow myself to wake up whenever, 7am instead of my normal 5 am.
I feel off already, but I have some big plans. I am working on a book and some course material and sprinkled into my day, I want to put away my Halloween decor and put up my huge gingerbread display, it’s a task for sure.
I attempt to start exercising. I’m using an app, for months I was really dedicated and then it completely fell off my schedule as I began putting all my energy into growing my business. I get interrupted by my spouse who is about to run into town and needs to know if the cauliflower I have is still good enough for dinner. I pause my workout, telling myself not to get aggravated he is being nice and offering to pick up more.
I check the refrigerator, the cauliflower, it’s squishy and growing mold. “Yes please,” he leaves and I go back to my bedroom to start my app again. Shortly after my small pomeranian pug comes in and starts biting at my socks. My 6 yr old follows closely behind and now they are engaged in a wrestling match. I hate loud noises.
My irritation with life is boiling. Ugh, I hate this feeling and I don’t even know why I am feeling like this! This is one of my lies I tell myself. You see, I do know why I feel like this, I’m just not taking the time to sit with myself and ask.
It is really easy to get stuck in this place. Rather than simply taking 5 min to sit with myself and ask why I am feeling so irritated I continue to allow the irritation to BUILD. It stops me from being productive, it makes me difficult to be around, then this adds to how I am feeling because the mom/wife guilt sets in as I take out my frustration on everyone else. A cycle… like a poison flowing in my day.
Remove myself, that is how I fix it. Remove myself, go to a quiet spot and write down why. My why is because I think that it is so “great” to spend a holiday not on schedule because that is what has been taught to me, right? Days off should have no agenda.Pat agreement creating havoc on my day.
I pull out my journal, the one I have created in fact, and begin to write down my non-negotiable items for the day and immediately I begin to feel my energy come back, my irritation releases as get back into my happy place!
Thank you for all you do, dear friend!